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weird day today...i've been out of sorts but nothing too major...just away with the fairies a bit...i think antonia taking the buggy to work knocked me for 6 as i was all set up to go out for the day and then i had to face trying to entertain isaac all day in the house...

we went to morrison's for breakfast...that was fun...and he really enjoyed going in his sling...i got a bit flustered when i was getting him back into his sling as we were leaving (after a great breakfast) cos its unusual and lots of people were looking..not in any bad way...just curiosity and i actually knew there was nothng negative (quite the victory) coming from any of them...but i soldiered on and we got out...i dealt with it remarkably well considering a few short weeks ago something like that would have left me shaking inside...

we came home and he slept for a while so i pottered on the internet...its a fabulous distraction when i'm feeling wibbly...mind you i would have preferred to be feeling on top and motivated to do some of the jobs which need sorting around the place...but hey ho...i promised myself i would go weasy and not see everything as a failing...who gives a flying fuck if the flat is a mess...i enjoyed being on the net and simon had already said he will sort it all out on saturday...

ooh simon...what a sweetie...on top of the cleaning he brought me a new chair - saved from the skip at work - to go with my salvaged desk...it feels great to be sitting at the pc in comfort on and using items which cost us barely nothgn and are recycled...excellent

so in the afternoon i took isaac round to see jared and he had a good toddle round the room and a watch of the big tv...then when he got bored we went for a walk round the garden...i got his car out of the garage and pushed him round the garden...he loved it...then when he got bored i took him out into the park and we walked up the long path under the trees...cue much smiling and laughter...on the way back down i stopped and got him out for some walking practice..he was ecstatic a guy who lives in one of the bungalows walked past and isaac went straight up to him and held his hands out to be held to walk...so sweet!!!

as we were walking bcak i saw simon at the end of the path (this was part of the point of going in the park...i wanted to be there to meet simon so he could see me and isaac having a good time as the first look at us as he got home) and he walked up to us...as soon as isaac saw his daddy he walked faster and was saying hello in that little way he does...

simon said 'how cute do you look walking in the park' and it was a magical moment...

we went to morrisons and got stuff for tea and stuff to make bread...i got the head of morrisons to look for poppy seeds for the bread and they didnt have any so i asked the bakery to sell me some...he went to the same guy and asked if he could and the head honcho said to just give me some

bravo...